Little did I know just how my life would transpire to evolve in the way that it has over the past few years! I could never have foreseen or predicted the outcome, which is still unfolding and presenting new horizons, ideas and concepts to me. Taking me forward on several plateaus simultaneously on spiritual and physical depths of discovery. Continue reading More than I ever expected
The term Two-Spirit is a fairly modern creation from 1990, describing a person who embodies their own spirit as male or female, plus a spirit of the opposite sex; within a society that accepted gender fluidity with individuals being valued more for their contribution to the community. It can also be described as creating four genders — male, female, male two-spirit and female two-spirit; living freely, able to choose how they dressed and lived their lives. The earliest form of LBGT perhaps?
I had already found that my thinking had gone down a similar path of ‘Polish’, not worrying about consequences and pushing for better things, hoping for a positive outcome; in some instances, putting my life on the line to get there. In my experience, once you have adopted that concept, it can be extremely liberating in its effect on how you make choices and move in directions that you would not have previously chosen, breaking out of your comfort zone. Continue reading Be a bit more Polish
It wasn’t a difficult thing for me to do once I had had made up my mind, this was something that I needed to do, there really was no other option that I could see that was a serious alternative. … Continue reading Did my world shrink?
There I was, sat by the side of the road waiting for a bus once again. A journey that I had started many times before, only this time I had a valid ticket. But this wasn’t like any other day! … Continue reading Enough is enough!
Life, a series of events and obstacles from the moment that we are conceived until the day we die Naturally, we are aware of the stages we go through from birth to old age, with fuzzy invisible divides that sit … Continue reading Jump up and touch the sky
and how it changed my life Let me start by defining Fear :- Fear is an emotion and as such can be controlled. It can exist at many levels with varying degrees of effect on our life and how we behave. … Continue reading Confronting fear . . .
There have been moments in my life that I’ve never really discussed with anyone before, small things that have accumulated in my memory over the years and are continually added to, a few recent ones are here. I remain unclear … Continue reading Being open and without fear, a Transgender life
No matter how I feel about myself and the way I live my life now, there will always be a few things that I can never change, or have the desire to. The first is pretty obvious in that I … Continue reading Sexuality: V2.0 the upgrade
This may just change the way that you think about yourself The purity and cuteness of babies makes people talk in quite funny ways, turning them into blubbering adults – coochie-coo! Terms such as cherub, angel and many others are … Continue reading Change how you think about yourself
I’ve been writing quite a lot lately and it appears to have simulated my mind, scanning through life events since 2016. I think this can be attributed to two main factors, the confinement in its sixth week and that I … Continue reading #Flashback – 2016
Are your still trying to understand who or what you are, perhaps having doubts and questions that are not easy to resolve? Suffered feelings of shame, failure or self-loathing, finding it difficult to discuss issues and feel alone, or circumstances … Continue reading Are you Transgender?
The lunatics are on the grass and they are being joined by self-appointed harbingers of truth and knowledge while the rest of the world is watching, thinking this looks like it might be fun! Many of these purveyors have false … Continue reading Down the rabbit hole
Today is Tuesday 24 March and the world has fallen into panic and chaos over the past several weeks. I am in the second week of a lockdown situation. I understand that from today the borders to France have been … Continue reading Living in a bubble
During the mid 90s I bought a cream that was supposed to reduce beard growth. It was light blue in colour and a product that I had found after a lot of searching online for something to reduce or eliminate … Continue reading Burn Baby Burn
I have waited until after my appointment with the endocrinologist before writing this entry to my story. A very early start to the day with an 8.30am meeting. I was up at 6am which was a bit of a shock … Continue reading Keep taking the pills!
28th January 2020 It’s here, a new decade. I am sure I recall that some years ago 2020 was heralded in stories, films etc., as a time for futuristic happenings such as space travel and wonderful scientific developments. Sure, life … Continue reading 2020 a year of life changing events?
28 Decenber 2019 Creative urges evoked as Christmas creeps closer It’s early December, Christmas and the New Year creep closer now as the first week of month passes by. My Christmas tree is reassembled, and fully decorated with the usual … Continue reading The festive season has arrived!
27th November 2019 The title highlights the diversity of my life right now, with the first two being highly specialised areas. But, they’ve all been dominant aspects over the past few weeks. I begin this entry on the afternoon of … Continue reading Psychology, Endocrinology, Renovation, Decorating and Birthday celebrations
21 September 2019 Sunday afternoon and time to reflect on a few things with just over a week remaining before August arrives. It’s been a hot summer with almost no rain. My vegetable garden managed to produce a flavourful crop, … Continue reading Free wheeling
26 July 2019 At the start of each day the harsh reality of who I am stares back at me from the bathroom mirror. An inescapable jolt that reminds me that I was born male, no mater how I feel … Continue reading Bad hair day
19 July 2019 The first week of July was one that I had waited three months to arrive! I didn’t sleep as well as usual and woke too early that morning in anticipation. Two appointments had been arranged, 8.30 and … Continue reading The wave effect
16 July 2019 England, longboats, reunions, cocktails, love and laughter I returned home yesterday afternoon from a week long visit to England staying with my sister and her husband on their longboat on the river Thames. Firstly I have never … Continue reading Family – the people who know you best
3 June 2019 I have added a star rating system to the articles hoping they may encourage some feedback and possibly assistance to others visiting the site.Thank you for you support and interest Continue reading New Star Ratings
31 May 2019 Becoming ‘un bénévole’ I have made the aquaintance of an English couple who are both artists and live close to my house. I have got to know Audrey better recently and she mentioned a presentation at the … Continue reading Struggling with motivation, ‘retirementʼ and other aspects of living alone
7 May 2019 The long awaited visit finally arrived last Thursday evening. I got to Limoges airport around 5pm in plenty of time to get my 6pm flight to Stansted, which took off almost 30 minutes late. Not really what … Continue reading A brief but wonderful visit
Those terrible feelings that haunted me before are gone forever. Nothing to feel bad or guilty about, nothing to hide or be ashamed of and I am not betraying or hurting anyone Continue reading How easily we can forget the past
2 April 2019 Filling my shoes pictured above is simple task in the basic sense. Living the life I want is a little more complex. It’s April 1st today as I begin typing. The clocks have moved forward one hour … Continue reading What you want and what you get in life?
2 March 2019 As I begin this entry it’s close to the end of the month and the weather has been amazing. I’ve had BBQ’s on my terrace and I’ve caught the sun too. I can’t recall ever managing to … Continue reading The ups and downs
12 February 2019 So February has arrived. The sun is shinning through my kitchen window and the time is 5.25pm on the first day of the month. It’s hard to imagine how awful the weather has been while sitting in … Continue reading 94kmph winds, rain and long nights – it could be worse!
21 Janaury 2019 Maybe it’s curiosity or a need to know that brings you to my site. The reason isn’t important. It’s encouraging enough that you find it worth a moment of your time. Time is a perhaps one of … Continue reading Who are you?
15 January 2019 The thought that this was a possibilty had ocurred to me recently and changed the direction I was heading towards at the start of this year. Discovering that I didn’t cope so well alone over the festive … Continue reading A dream come true
December 28th and we are in the closing days of 2018 and heading towards a New Year – 2019. It has been a landmark year for me in so many repects which leaves me feeling that it’s been a very … Continue reading The end and the beginning
I hadn’t slept very well during the night and woke at 4am. 30 minutes later I decided to get out of bed. Once I had orientated myself and fed the cats, I made a light breakfast and sat with a … Continue reading It’s Monday
Here we are approaching Christmas of 2018 and I will be staying here in France. As yet I haven’t been invited anywhere, although I have invited someone for Christmas lunch. John the elderly gentleman whose wife died recently. He is … Continue reading The festive season has begun along with cold nights, cuddly cats and hospital
Today I have reached the age of 66 years old and I’ve had a thought in my head that keeps bouncing about lately. How did I manage to get through life for so long not being Sophie? I guess that … Continue reading Being philosophical
It’s the last Sunday in October and the cranes are departing France in their annual flight to warmer southern climates and can be seen in long V shaped flocks in the sky. Often you can hear their calls during the … Continue reading A new phase
October 6th: It has been a year to the day since I moved into my quirky but beautiful old house. And the past three days have been just so full of love happiness that I am extremely happy today even … Continue reading The anniversary of my first year in Bellac
My decorating has taken a set back. I had to finally admit to a damp problem in the wall, which has now been opened up as shown above. All is made clear as you read on. Today, 19th September was … Continue reading Life is never what you expect
The month of August has arrived – the summer is flying past at speed! It’s only a couple of months and then I will have been living in my house and as Sophie for a full year. What a year … Continue reading Metamorphosis
This piece was written for a website and community where I had been a member, ambassador and editor. Sometimes the process of writing about my life has a more powerful effect on me directly. I think this was one of … Continue reading Am I destined to a life alone?
It’s the 14th of July, Bastille Day in France and a day of celebrations throughout the country, much of which started last night. As I arrived back in Bellac at just past 11pm yesterday, I saw fireworks above the rooftops … Continue reading Summer is hotting up rapidly
On this very hot last Saturday morning of June, while driving to work along a country road surrounded by greenery and blue sky, I became quite emotional while listening to some music. It wasn’t the music but where my mind … Continue reading Becoming a free spirit
This is an open letter to all those who have known me from earlier in my life and have become aware of this site. Although this site is public, I have given the site address to certain people in my … Continue reading You may have thought you knew me
Did I say that things had slowed down – oh contraire! Almost halfway into the year and so much has happened this year. Here I am at 9pm on a Monday evening, a nice glass of a 2015 Bordeaux and … Continue reading 140 days into 2018…
…maybe that’s a good thing but I am feeling a little frustrated right now. The start to March has been full of administrative things. Changing so many of my accounts and registrations. From my driving licence to my social security … Continue reading Have things slowed down?
The 14th of February and I am packing things for my long drive tomorrow for a meeting that I hope will prove to be the start of transition in a life that I am need of and am striving for … Continue reading The gateway to my future?
When I wrote this article, I was totally unaware of the imminent release of the excellent documentary Disclosure, directed by Sam Feder and produced by Laverne Cox and Amy Scholder. I most strongly recommend that you watch this important and powerful film. The timing of this is amazingly coincidental to the heart of my article, which makes me feel really good about the things that I have written, reinforcing my ideas and beliefs.
It started when you were born
As far back in history as you would like to go, there have been divisions of groups of people, based upon their wealth, religion, social position, race or colour. It has become a worldwide accepted way throughout all cultures across time and nothing new. As such, each of us identifies with one or more of these Tagged goups in relation to who and what we are; a political choice, where we live, our social status etc. Becoming a ‘natural’ thing to do. Just that I am describing as natural is slightly unsettling in my mind.
Do we need tags?
What does being Tagged achieve for us, who are invisibly labelled by them? A sense of belonging, maybe of achievement, professionally or otherwise? I’m sure they can help or hinder us throughout our lifetime; although they are not chosen by us, yet imposed by circumstances that are simply translated into a Tag by the location of your birth or your parent’s social position, one that is already defined by society. I would bold enough to suggest that tags are hold a power able to damage or render us ineffective with future prospects in life diminished to levels of impossibilities. Keeping us neatly confined within the parameters of our Tags.
We are entering an era that no generation before us has experienced or encountered. However, taking a positive perspective on this, we are in bad need of many global changes to stop the destruction and extinction of so much life on this planet. Sadly, I am not feeling that the forces in play have quite the same outlook for our future as I would hope for. I am holding onto a glimmer of optimism, that we the people this world may be able to unite against the malevolent forces that have brought humanity to this point. An overwhelming obsession of wealth and greed with a general disregard for the wellbeing of people and life has dragged us along this path. One that many have blindly followed in good faith.
We will never stop progress and nor should we, but there are key factors that should concern us greatly about our collective future. What and how things are managed and controlled with due care and consideration, with empathy and love, for the benefit of all life in this world.
I wish that I could broadcast this message with the same power held by the media
Broadcast with the persistence and regularity of the present pandemic warnings that have been pumped out relentlessly across every form of media. Conditioning people that they need to comply without questioning anything. Simply do as you told or be punished! What they need to do is take in a huge breath of fresh air, open their eyes and look deeper into our history and what is going on right now and has been for.
Leaders and governments are elected to serve and represent the people who elected and trusted them, not to be suppressed or controlled in uncaring ways. Shouldn’t they be obligated to demonstrate care, compassion and concern for all people and all life? Is feels to me, that this shouldn’t be a question that should have to ask!
My personal message
To my fellow citizens of Earth, this is a time like no other. A time that we need to come together for all of our futures and for the generations who will follow us. We have a duty to ourselves and to our children. Is there really anything that more important or of value in our brief interaction in this physical world?