Update September 2020 Coming back to this article about eight months later, I note my comment that I thought i had a virus!!! Hummm! Coincidence or what? I have spoken to many people in the town since then and learnt … Continue reading 2020 a year of life changing events? Edit
If you wish to bring about changes in your life, you must first learn do things differently Consider the possibility that we come into this world with an amount of pre-programming built into our core being. That new born children appear … Continue reading Bring about positive changes in your life
The changes that I began making to my life late in 2016, began a process that has been far greater in its effect and full of revelations that I could ever have expected at that time. The process began with gaining awareness of who I was and have been and now living that live fully. Continue reading Thank you from my heart
Introduction This is something I wrote in the very early stages of my transition; at a point where I was becoming increasingly focused on my life path up to that point. I realised that my life had followed a pattern, … Continue reading Learning to love yourself completely – updated
When I wrote this article, I was totally unaware of the imminent release of the excellent documentary Disclosure, directed by Sam Feder and produced by Laverne Cox and Amy Scholder. I most strongly recommend that you watch this important and … Continue reading You’ve been Tagged
Did that make you grit your teeth? Make you laugh? Or maybe smile? When I wrote this article, I was totally unaware of the imminent release of the excellent documentary Disclosure, directed by Sam Feder and produced by Laverne Cox … Continue reading It’s good to be different
Saturday morning and I was feeling in a slightly better mood. After lunch I put on some relaxing piano music and lit some incense sticks, partly to clear the air from the aromas of my cooking, but I like the vibe too. A couple of hours passed with more incense sticks, accompanied by the dulcet tones of relaxed riffs of relaxing piano tunes. I was in a very calm and chilled mood when the doorbell rang; welcoming in my friend, she commented on the music, incense, and my super relaxed demeaner. Continue reading 180 degrees of change
She believed our meeting was 3.30 that day, whereas I believed it was 11am, hence my arrival! There was no way I was returning home having only viewed one house and quickly agreed to meet later. From that point onward my life changed in a series of coincidences, something that I could never have engineered if I had tried. A moment when the word synchronicity came into my mind, as events began to happen in a way that I had not experienced, almost appearing to be out of my hands or control. Continue reading Destroy before you can create
Little did I know just how my life would transpire to evolve in the way that it has over the past few years! I could never have foreseen or predicted the outcome, which is still unfolding and presenting new horizons, ideas and concepts to me. Taking me forward on several plateaus simultaneously on spiritual and physical depths of discovery. Continue reading More than I ever expected
The term Two-Spirit is a fairly modern creation from 1990, describing a person who embodies their own spirit as male or female, plus a spirit of the opposite sex; within a society that accepted gender fluidity with individuals being valued more for their contribution to the community. It can also be described as creating four genders — male, female, male two-spirit and female two-spirit; living freely, able to choose how they dressed and lived their lives. The earliest form of LBGT perhaps?
I had already found that my thinking had gone down a similar path of ‘Polish’, not worrying about consequences and pushing for better things, hoping for a positive outcome; in some instances, putting my life on the line to get there. In my experience, once you have adopted that concept, it can be extremely liberating in its effect on how you make choices and move in directions that you would not have previously chosen, breaking out of your comfort zone. Continue reading Be a bit more Polish
It wasn’t a difficult thing for me to do once I had had made up my mind, this was something that I needed to do, there really was no other option that I could see that was a serious alternative. … Continue reading Did my world shrink?
There I was, sat by the side of the road waiting for a bus once again. A journey that I had started many times before, only this time I had a valid ticket. But this wasn’t like any other day! … Continue reading Enough is enough!
Life, a series of events and obstacles from the moment that we are conceived until the day we die Naturally, we are aware of the stages we go through from birth to old age, with fuzzy invisible divides that sit … Continue reading Jump up and touch the sky
and how it changed my life Let me start by defining Fear :- Fear is an emotion and as such can be controlled. It can exist at many levels with varying degrees of effect on our life and how we behave. … Continue reading Confronting fear . . .
There have been moments in my life that I’ve never really discussed with anyone before, small things that have accumulated in my memory over the years and are continually added to, a few recent ones are here. I remain unclear … Continue reading Being open and without fear, a Transgender life
No matter how I feel about myself and the way I live my life now, there will always be a few things that I can never change, or have the desire to. The first is pretty obvious in that I … Continue reading Sexuality: V2.0 the upgrade
This may just change the way that you think about yourself The purity and cuteness of babies makes people talk in quite funny ways, turning them into blubbering adults – coochie-coo! Terms such as cherub, angel and many others are … Continue reading Change how you think about yourself
I’ve been writing quite a lot lately and it appears to have simulated my mind, scanning through life events since 2016. I think this can be attributed to two main factors, the confinement in its sixth week and that I … Continue reading #Flashback – 2016
Are your still trying to understand who or what you are, perhaps having doubts and questions that are not easy to resolve? Suffered feelings of shame, failure or self-loathing, finding it difficult to discuss issues and feel alone, or circumstances … Continue reading Are you Transgender?
The lunatics are on the grass and they are being joined by self-appointed harbingers of truth and knowledge while the rest of the world is watching, thinking this looks like it might be fun! Many of these purveyors have false … Continue reading Down the rabbit hole
Today is Tuesday 24 March and the world has fallen into panic and chaos over the past several weeks. I am in the second week of a lockdown situation. I understand that from today the borders to France have been … Continue reading Living in a bubble
During the mid 90s I bought a cream that was supposed to reduce beard growth. It was light blue in colour and a product that I had found after a lot of searching online for something to reduce or eliminate … Continue reading Burn Baby Burn
I have waited until after my appointment with the endocrinologist before writing this entry to my story. A very early start to the day with an 8.30am meeting. I was up at 6am which was a bit of a shock … Continue reading Keep taking the pills!
28 Decenber 2019 Creative urges evoked as Christmas creeps closer It’s early December, Christmas and the New Year creep closer now as the first week of month passes by. My Christmas tree is reassembled, and fully decorated with the usual … Continue reading The festive season has arrived!
27th November 2019 The title highlights the diversity of my life right now, with the first two being highly specialised areas. But, they’ve all been dominant aspects over the past few weeks. I begin this entry on the afternoon of … Continue reading Psychology, Endocrinology, Renovation, Decorating and Birthday celebrations
21 September 2019 Sunday afternoon and time to reflect on a few things with just over a week remaining before August arrives. It’s been a hot summer with almost no rain. My vegetable garden managed to produce a flavourful crop, … Continue reading Free wheeling
26 July 2019 At the start of each day the harsh reality of who I am stares back at me from the bathroom mirror. An inescapable jolt that reminds me that I was born male, no mater how I feel … Continue reading Bad hair day
19 July 2019 The first week of July was one that I had waited three months to arrive! I didn’t sleep as well as usual and woke too early that morning in anticipation. Two appointments had been arranged, 8.30 and … Continue reading The wave effect
16 July 2019 England, longboats, reunions, cocktails, love and laughter I returned home yesterday afternoon from a week long visit to England staying with my sister and her husband on their longboat on the river Thames. Firstly I have never … Continue reading Family – the people who know you best
3 June 2019 I have added a star rating system to the articles hoping they may encourage some feedback and possibly assistance to others visiting the site.Thank you for you support and interest Continue reading New Star Ratings
31 May 2019 Becoming ‘un bénévole’ I have made the aquaintance of an English couple who are both artists and live close to my house. I have got to know Audrey better recently and she mentioned a presentation at the … Continue reading Struggling with motivation, ‘retirementʼ and other aspects of living alone
7 May 2019 The long awaited visit finally arrived last Thursday evening. I got to Limoges airport around 5pm in plenty of time to get my 6pm flight to Stansted, which took off almost 30 minutes late. Not really what … Continue reading A brief but wonderful visit
Those terrible feelings that haunted me before are gone forever. Nothing to feel bad or guilty about, nothing to hide or be ashamed of and I am not betraying or hurting anyone Continue reading How easily we can forget the past
2 April 2019 Filling my shoes pictured above is simple task in the basic sense. Living the life I want is a little more complex. It’s April 1st today as I begin typing. The clocks have moved forward one hour … Continue reading What you want and what you get in life?
2 March 2019 As I begin this entry it’s close to the end of the month and the weather has been amazing. I’ve had BBQ’s on my terrace and I’ve caught the sun too. I can’t recall ever managing to … Continue reading The ups and downs
12 February 2019 So February has arrived. The sun is shinning through my kitchen window and the time is 5.25pm on the first day of the month. It’s hard to imagine how awful the weather has been while sitting in … Continue reading 94kmph winds, rain and long nights – it could be worse!
21 Janaury 2019 Maybe it’s curiosity or a need to know that brings you to my site. The reason isn’t important. It’s encouraging enough that you find it worth a moment of your time. Time is a perhaps one of … Continue reading Who are you?
15 January 2019 The thought that this was a possibilty had ocurred to me recently and changed the direction I was heading towards at the start of this year. Discovering that I didn’t cope so well alone over the festive … Continue reading A dream come true
December 28th and we are in the closing days of 2018 and heading towards a New Year – 2019. It has been a landmark year for me in so many repects which leaves me feeling that it’s been a very … Continue reading The end and the beginning
I hadn’t slept very well during the night and woke at 4am. 30 minutes later I decided to get out of bed. Once I had orientated myself and fed the cats, I made a light breakfast and sat with a … Continue reading It’s Monday
Here we are approaching Christmas of 2018 and I will be staying here in France. As yet I haven’t been invited anywhere, although I have invited someone for Christmas lunch. John the elderly gentleman whose wife died recently. He is … Continue reading The festive season has begun along with cold nights, cuddly cats and hospital
Today I have reached the age of 66 years old and I’ve had a thought in my head that keeps bouncing about lately. How did I manage to get through life for so long not being Sophie? I guess that … Continue reading Being philosophical
It’s the last Sunday in October and the cranes are departing France in their annual flight to warmer southern climates and can be seen in long V shaped flocks in the sky. Often you can hear their calls during the … Continue reading A new phase
October 6th: It has been a year to the day since I moved into my quirky but beautiful old house. And the past three days have been just so full of love happiness that I am extremely happy today even … Continue reading The anniversary of my first year in Bellac
My decorating has taken a set back. I had to finally admit to a damp problem in the wall, which has now been opened up as shown above. All is made clear as you read on. Today, 19th September was … Continue reading Life is never what you expect
The month of August has arrived – the summer is flying past at speed! It’s only a couple of months and then I will have been living in my house and as Sophie for a full year. What a year … Continue reading Metamorphosis
This piece was written for a website and community where I had been a member, ambassador and editor. Sometimes the process of writing about my life has a more powerful effect on me directly. I think this was one of … Continue reading Am I destined to a life alone?
It’s the 14th of July, Bastille Day in France and a day of celebrations throughout the country, much of which started last night. As I arrived back in Bellac at just past 11pm yesterday, I saw fireworks above the rooftops … Continue reading Summer is hotting up rapidly
On this very hot last Saturday morning of June, while driving to work along a country road surrounded by greenery and blue sky, I became quite emotional while listening to some music. It wasn’t the music but where my mind … Continue reading Becoming a free spirit